exams tomorrow...totally NOT READY!

1. i know, its hard, it gets lonely sometimes and you cant do anything about it, but i really dont know what to do, i guess at this momment, nothing. just living life as it comes. i doubt that day will EVER come. seeing people around me, one by one, thats 3 new-ish ones, idk maybe that movie wasnt too good for me, but LOL seriously?! i would never understand, at least not now, but again maybe not ever, 2. i know you hate it when people say those things, but it cant be help. sometimes it can get annoying i find it annoying sometimes too, but i feel, every once and a while, everyone feels like expressing their thoughts and i kinda understand that 3. i hate you sometimes but sometimes i dont, i dont know whether i SHOULD hate you or shouldnt i, BOTH OF YOU ARE THE SAME! why do you guys have to be so ARGHHH, its so hard to pick a side, both of you can be so annoying at times, sometimes scary, but i dont know whether i hate you, :/ 4. i really really like you as a friend but sometimes YOU ANNOY THE HELL OUT OF ME, and its always me that forgives and forgets, what you did today pissed me off SO MUCH more than the other day. WHY! 5. sometimes i dont know what to think, what am i supposed to do... are we starting to stop? i think the pressure of exams is getting to me...i dont show it really..but as soon as the door closes....break down.... I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE everyone is confusing to meeeeeeeee i dont know who to talk to anymore, everyones kinda gone :/