My shipping experience

O.M.G! The super market here is so.....cool!! Let's just say its like a priceline, Coles, bread top, fish market, Asian grocery, hot dollar, flower shop and heaps more! AND everything is so much nicer! It's so high tech too! The vegetable ally has automatic sprinklers that keep the vegetables fresher and their refrigerators have side lights that light up only if you walk pass the door, everything is like super sized and for less money too!!! Hahah I could live my whole life just going to that one store :), I'm going to put some photoes but I don't know when they will turn up so... Yer :) really cool super market, it really is super ;)

IVE TRIED SO MANY TIMES!!! AND IVE HAD ENOUGH! IM NOT GOING!

oooooooooooooooooooooooooooh~

so i ended up going out today :/ despite being super tired from last night, i went out because of ********************************************* im not saying im angry...but eugh, your choice just hope you didnt do anything bad... anyway i didnt mind heading out today anyway, cause to you and talleegra...(how ever you spell it) was on :) to you was fun :) i enjoyed it and it went pretty fast, but teshiahifhaewhf blah class took forever! i guess i cant blame new people but...still.... anyway i learnt both dances then jaye and i went to get lunch, we went to the jap place on a corner on the lnc street it was one of those sushi train type of style, it was nice :) i liked their sushi (Y) must go back so other time ^^ then we headed back to the studio and ellyn was there! with her new hair.... hmmm yes ellyn i am "indifferent" about it :) i decided to head home a bit earlier and picked up a few things before leaving for canada, bus came late :/ but i got home about 6:30 and good thing to, it started pouring just as i started blogging ^^ yay! for good timing :) 3 more days... :/ excited? not really :/ i guess tomorrow will be a packing day, tuesday normal school and wednesday! then thursday..i still dont know if i should go to school :/ busy busy busy! :D

Are you warm tonight? :)

looking back

:( looking through pass photos...i think, wow so much has changed :( for the better or the worst? i cant tell :( so many good moments spent together and it seems....we dont anymore :( this saddens me alot, in the photos we all had so much fun! so busy day tomorrow, and boo...i organised something on sunday == now... eugh all hw has to be done on monday and lol i still havent packes ^^

a really good day :)

so today i woke up early, early enough for me to catch the bus..but didnt... so... yer maybe tuesday :) but yes woke up early got to school decided to get a hot chocolate because it was super cold ^^ then had first period music TROLOLLO the stupid music prac teacher, after we had english, we had a sub :) never seen this sub before, got an essay so...i guess ill have to write one before i leave == after english double phyics LOL "what are the best ways to distract miss tapp?" we began the lesson hearing about course in uni, and how everything works took up quite a bit of time ^^ then work was actually done and finally an unexpected experiment as one of my class mates asked how a light can be turned on and off with 2 switchs :) no body got it in the end, cause apparently the light has to turn off when you hold both of them == lol we kept short circuiting our power pack :D physics went fast, then i had a study were i watched ABDC i dont like the top 2...but oh wells, then i had chemistry again and I UNDERSTAND NOW!@!!! i actually know what i was doing, hope the rest of it isnt that hard :/ using avogadro isnt that hard ^^ and the number isnt that hard to remember either :) then end of the day~ i decided to go orchestra today cause its my last friday before leaving OMG! i cant believe im going to miss out on it :( i mean ive always loved it when we play pirates of the carribean in class and thats only with 2 violins a piano and a flute, but THE WHOLE ORCHESTRA! IT WAS SPECTACULAR! definately the highlight of the show! maybe its not THAT good, since i went in there thinking that it was going absolutely horrible because everyone tells me they are really bad at it, but i concur! really good :) better then what i expected :) but...lol after the flute solo it went all bad :( lol until the very last note with the drum roll BANG! SO GOOD! i really want to hear a finished recording :) so after orchestra, dispite it being a bit chilli i decided to walk to the uni and catch the bus there, i wasnt in a hurry so i did ^^ got home at 5:30 the went straight to sleep :P woke up at 8 and decided to blog :) yay? hahah tomorrow i was going to take 12 class..but its not teen top so..yer 5 more days :/

here we go again

i havent felt this for a very long time, sure ive gone down this road but not this far, not as far as when theres no possible way back, last time there was you, which i dont want to admit but yes, i cant but just smile, you were great and i really thank you :) you helped me ALOT maybe thats one of the advantages, but yes i really want to thank you, last time you saved me from falling deeper, but i doubt you will read this... lol theres no way :) this time round its harder to get through, i dont know how i will survive the next month, its so empty, cold, and with this weather, it doesnt make it better, its so hard to find a reason to live, a reason to try harder, is there a point? no one really cares, my parents hate me, my sisters dont care at all, you say that but it doesnt really concern you, theres no point to anything. maybe..this holiday would be good for me.... maybe...im still not sure, will it just bring more unhappiness and stress? or give me a break? what you said today is totally right, some people can do it, others cant, i can...most of the time ^^ sometimes it gets hard to, but normally i can live by it. but i dont blame her for it, we are human not robots :) im sure you do sometimes too so why all the hate! :P but...how long can this **** last? when will it were away? AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!i dont want to anymore! being a teenager is horrible.... but i must say...its just thinking ^^ im sure ill be fine in the morning, maybe posting this will cut me away from this....i think lol :) but i hope you are doing well :) and yer ..... thoughts be gone!

do you believe in ******?

so today, normal ish, first period study YAY! for actually doing work! i completed 2 chapters lol... it didnt take that long actually ^^ then a had english which was work work work but nothing really sinks in ^^ then after recess i had actually maths, LOL BEST LESSON EVER! our teacher is horrible! she got the rule wrong and a classmate corrected her and she was told to "open the door and come into our world" cause clearly our teacher is right and she is wrong but NO! she was the one that got it wrong lol and blamed it on being distracted by the previous rule, DUDE! they are 2 totally different rules == lol then she went on to do an example and lol at the beginning of the lesson she said "Dont you dare touch that calculater! you should all know your cubics and quartics up to 5! no excuses!" and end of the lesson 64 turns into 4^4...the whole Asian corner...lol whut? heehee even i knew that wasnt right ^^ then we told her she wrote it wrong and she was like...OH!!! woops got a bit confused there and rights 3^4 WRONG AGAIN MISS!!! trolololol and WE HAD TO DO THE QUESTION FOR HER~! == some teacher she is :) well it wasnt very hard..so meh :P physics next and I ACTUALLY LEARNT SOMETHING!! yay! im enjoying physics way more then chemistry...which is kinda weird...lol :P heehee speaking of chemistry CARMEN! i started avogadro :P well...sorta...it was for homework..homework which i havent looked at :P after physics i had double music, i was so tried by the end i fell asleep which was alright cause i was listening to good music ;) didnt head to the library today cause...lol i didnt have much maths homework ^^ miss was to carried away and only gave us question 1 and 2 :P and we dont have maths til tuesday WAHAHAH!! :D tomorrow friday... then saturday then sunday then monday then tuesday then wednesday then...im gone :/ hmmmmmmmmmmm :( i dont want to gooooo

Bright new dayyyy :)

lol...

just stop thinking!!!

lol....i get later and later..maybe i should not...lol first period religion...i couldnt fall asleep :/ so i just drew on stuff ^^ after i had music which was prac so...nothing really, after music i had maths...not very interesting...im starting to get behind again ^^ lol so i havent started any maths this week.... what am i doing!!! >< after we had a roll period which was nothing... then music again, and it was prac again so.... nothing really :) yay! i got a recording (Y) hahah but still needs work, lol i wonder how it will sound with the whole orchestra :P after music i had chemistry, i was so tired..i fell asleep :/ and lol missed the whole pouring, woke up at the bell to find outside absolutely horrible! definately woke me up, i didnt end up going to library as it was way to cold, so i went home, the bus was alright but :/ when i got off...it was absolutely horrible == it was cool cause my fingers were frozen...i could move them ^^ and got soaked :) i guess it wasnt THAT bad but lol hope it doesnt happen again :/ did nothing after i am so un-motivated into doing anything.... new favourite song!...for the moment ^^ i hope i find something to work towards :/ wish i could just be lifted out of this sighhhhhhh another day tomorrow and it will be exactly a week

im so lost.. is it like impossible for me to be doing one thing right? == there is only one solution...well more but one that i want to do :/

not much time left

today is monday >< just 7 days... :/ well i woke up extremely tired, then made my way to school, first period physics was.... good :) i actually did work! :) then i had religion..i swear i am invisible or something, the girl behind me had her laptop open (so did i) she got yelled at and had to put the laptop down....but she didnt say anything about me...lol and my friend got in trouble for sleeping....hmmm...weird...oh wells she doesnt know my name anyway ^^ then after recess i had english and maths, i fell asleep in english >< they we giving back advice on our english papers...yer i fell asleep..should have listened though ^^ oh wells, i got an ok mark anyway :) hahah kevin :P then i had maths, normal..nothing interesting, lunch went really fast then i had double chem, the lesson went quite fast and lol we got put into a setting plan but really...now we are in yr 11...and its elective classes... everyone is friends with everyone, so setting plans dont really work..lol im in between my two good friends...i have no issues with this setting plan :) after chem, emily wanted to walk so i walked with her down to anzac parade, 1. its never going to happen so stop talking about it 2. yes i know im weird like that but...i cant do anything about it == 3. :/ i dont know either all i know is (1)234 (1)2345678 1(2)3 (1)(2)(3) (1)(2)34567 12(3)45 1(2)3 (1)23 (1)(2) and 4. it's weird right? , i really want to have an a epiphany so i can sorta understand yer so emily got to her bus stop and i got to mine...it was weird weather today :/ the bus came quickly and i spent the whole bus ride home trying the 25 levels on doors, and I WAS ON A ROLL! :P i finished all of them...except the last one ^^ got home and...lol fell asleep didnt do much for the rest of the night so im going to leave it as that :)

To the next one!!

Today was fun :) no regrets, happy with this ending :)