miracles in december

December has started, the last month of the year and what a year it has been. i havent blogged in like forever, alot has changed i feel, and now my heart aches because of many things.... i have come to realised i have made the wrong decision and took the wrong path... although this path is worth it in the future, i feel that if i had taken the other road, it would have benefited me personal more and would have been happier that way. but i cant u-turn now, i guess ill wait till January and when uni starts. uni.... what am i going to do with you.... results arent out yet but i still really need to decide what i want to look into... going to the usyd nursing intro was very helpful and i quite like it, excluding the fact that it takes me 1.5 hours to get home.... other then that it looks very good. but double degree or just the plain bachelor? :/ i cant decide..... i think ill just wait for the result :/ which is like..... in 2 weeks.... dammnnnnn the biggest thing in my life right now is exo... hard to believe but yes exo is very important atm.. words can not describe how i feel towards them, their music, their everything, is just irreplaceable speaking of replaceable, recently i have decided to cut some relationships...well cut alot of relationships because i feel... i do have a choice who to hang and be with them, i can say no to people and i dont have to listen to them if i dont feel like it, this is one step in my life at the moment that i definately do not regret, it has allowed me to find better and happy things to do with my time...like exo ^^ plus it looks like my decision to do this has made no difference to everyday life so it does shine light on what that relationship meant... which nothing haha what a pity. but like jasmine said, you spend so much time trying to build that relationship but in the end, it was all for nothing. working 7 days a week does keep me occupied so....sleep time now :3 but as long as i have exo i feel it will be fine, dont judge. no one will understand how important exo is to me <3 sigh just thinking about them i can feel my heart ache haha oh wells, i cant with for mircles in december :) new songs to add to the exo <3 playlist ^^