That smile <3

after orchestra i feel so christmasy all the time ^^ my favourite ever christmas songs would have to be away in the manger , hark the herald angels and o come all ye faithful, SO GOOD! :D 我永远不会忘记这一天 我说了 我说了! 我跟他讲话!!! :) 我真的很高兴!! 很开心!! 是真的! 一个窗口关闭，另一扇就会打开, 我希望这可以成为我的新生活, 但我希望忘了不会太难 :/ 只能,等着看吧

一閃一閃亮晶晶 留下歲月的痕跡 我的世界的中心 依然還是你~ 我还喜欢你吗? 那些回憶 我不会忘記的. 但是现在已经没了 我也不能改变现实. 算了吧.....

I am afraid :( my heart is telling me one thing but I know I shouldn't I just can't. It will be stupid I can't go back on my word maybe I should just stay away until then

Is it possible to hate something so much that you can't stand it, even though it was my whole world before? But why do I still want it? What should I do? The rock is basically my life~

Ofc it's one in a million to feel the way you do, it's not that easy :/ even if I was going TRY to catch that one bolt of lighting, is it worth it? Maybe I should just wait till one week that one week, if luck goes my way :) but I think I found if I do try hard good things happen :) I mean that test was a breeze :) lets just hope I did alright ^^ and the ones coming, I'm ready! :) lets hope this momentum continues and forward we go! :) but boy it's lonesome at home :( nothing but the slow and relaxing beats of the bass, will I end up like daisy? :/

i think its kinda true how when one door closes another one opens :) sometimes it takes a while, but others its almost instantaneous, but all is good :) lets hope for the best! :D

wake me up when it all ends.

life sucks. well i typed a whole paragraph going on about why i came to this discison but ....i think writing it out kinda eased the anger and hatred so.. *delete* and all i have left to say is that talking to you really made it better i guess now i know life isnt easy and its hard to be optimistic about things all the time but things cant change, they are how god made them so..yer but im glad i got over it cause today i had the most wonderful day! despite the weird weather everyone was really nice :) people who i do even talk to or even hate and thought they hated me actually greeted me or laughed with me and listened to me... one girl smiled and said "bye! wow whitney i havent talked to you in ages!" ....at first i didnt answer thinking she was talking to a person behind me...cause it would have been awkward if i answered her and she wasnt talking to me....lol then the girl i hated turned around and talked to me and even laughed..... lol whut? then 3 teachers in a row greeted me with a smile and a 'how are you'. was there a sign on me or something? did i look like i needed a happy greeting? i was feeling so cheerful when i got home :) even my sisters and i had the fun-ness time eating dinner, as i only discovered the song some nights last night we sang so loudly it was so fun ^^ so yer, i guess today makes up for that other day :/ but i guess the higher you go the faster and harder you fall :/ i know i did.. but fixing that wont be a too big of a problem... i cant just *delete* all of it ill just avoid it. theres no turning back now.. its a totally different world now.