i have no idea what to do in life anymore.... absolutely none..... :(

"Come back to me if you're not too far If you still love me... I am still waiting for you right here yeah yeah If you already forgot about me, I'll wait a little more so I can hate myself more yeah~" great song!~

i just have to push through!~~~ 3 more days! 3 more assessments!!! by the week end all i want to do is to the beautiful you and sleeppppp! but idk maybe doing something worth while could also be beneficial :) we shall see MATHS MUSIC AND PHYSICS TO GO! WO! i feel totally dead atm ==

is this a sign that nothing i ever do is going to go right? i mean why am i just so stupiddddddddd maybe im just that stupid................................. :( life is good not from where i stand and i guess ******* is so going to happen know, you just all wait and see!

studying...staying a home...nothing to do but study..SUCKS. the one thing i hate about myself is coming back :( i really hate...maybe thats too strong of a word...but it annoys me... what you guys did to me...like i think i was fine the way i was... i was happy that way...now im just miserable... i cant look... maybe this time, i can change it, i mean its not that hard....:) bored bored boreedddd

stupid song == now im thinking about you again~~~~~ :( waah i miss you <3

i need you, and i miss you, and now i wonder..... cause you know id walk a 1000 miles if i could just see you~

i cant believe im ACUTALLY sad....like WHY? it totally shouldnt mean anything but...wow i can actually feel a pierce through my heart like..its not imaginary i can actually feel it.... stupid feelings

todays exam... im really dissapointed idk... did i study enough? some people would say no, cause really..i only studied it a few weeks before the exam...but nothing was really syncing .... but on the other hand..i did study more then i did last time which i guess is a good thing :) but i shouldnt be proud..i didnt do very well... but doing this exam it felt different... normally in exams i wouldnt know something and i would think "lol...." and just bullshit my way through it, but during this exam not once did i think lol instead i was very unhappy with myself. my feelings and thoughts are "no matter how hard i tried nothing good ever happens" but in reality i know...i didnt try that hard...if i did i would have done better.... but those feelings and thoughts are still present WAHHH why am i such i fail == oh how i wish you were here.. lol and this morning i thought today might be a lucky day cause i saw you again....but i guess not