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eeeeep

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stabbed in the back.

im failing every aspect of life....and its not fun :( wish i could just die away...not do anything.... life is not fun at all, not fun... especially when bad things happens... why cant there be at least a place where all things are perfect, no worries, no thoughts, nothing...just...impossible i guess today was a pretty bad day... :/ oh wells, tomorrow should be a busy one so..sleep time?

Busy busy day

So tired >< but I feel like blogging :) so today I woke up made my way to crossover, got there, no one turned up to the 12 class so no class soon 1:15 power class was on, dance break learnt HORRAY? :P after class it was practice :( very tiring then it was you're the one practice so tired from power, I don't know how you do it Jaye:( its so tiring, after I went to get food, new found favourite food :) oden's mince meat rice thing :) so good ^^ then went to get a chatime cause they give 15% off with oden :) ate the soon the kpop battle started it was fun watching :) had a really good time, after crossover start to clear out and I bboy trained :) yes you read correctly :) I learnt the baby freeze and the six step SO HARD :( would need to practice it more :( then I decided to go home got to the bus stop earlier so I took another bus and to my surprise Justin and danna was on the bus too :) danna soon got off but I had a nice talk with Justin :) lol the bus driver was playing celin Dion really loudly :) bus ride went fast got home around 9:30 then got ready for bed, now it's night night time :) good night :D

when will it be me?

so today was a sorta depressing day...maybe people were just in a bad mood, oh wells..it got better now so i guess thats the most important thing ^^ piano was normal, i found my yr 11 pieces and half of my yr 12 :) now to actually practice them ^^ after mum couldnt take us home, so i had lunch/breakfast with my sister, then took the bus home, got home then worked cause mum wasnt home yet, then after mum got home, continued the house work, then got ready for bed then LOL why? O.o was this a sign? hahah i really really like it ^^ but..i would never use it :/ well i would use one...but maybe not this one in particular ^^ but still fun :) but i still wonder...when will it be me ^^

ouch :/

interesting and fun night ^^

survival with manderins

so today i got...ALOT of sleep...yet i get light headed when i run down the stairs....not a good thing i guess :/ this morning woke up got to school like another day, religion first period, lol i thought "nah i got so much sleep last night, no way i can fall asleep now" wrong whitney, i did ^^ she is just soo boring!!!! after relgion was english, work work work as always, but the period went by fast :/ after that it was phsyics and chem, double tapp :) physics we help set up a yr 9 exam, it was a prac lol see we got this list of stuff, and we set it up, twas fun :) then chemistry...not so fun but meh. after lunch i had a study...lol i was so determined to get work done..but wrong AGAIN i slept ^^ maths was POINTLESS!!! lol we are doing log and SHE TOOK FOREVER TO EXPLAIN THE RULES! she started writing up all the logs based 10, 2 and 3...and in the end all just to explain the rules.... HAHAHAH we learnt some retarded POINTLESS but funny rule ^^ the BAP rule ;) its so we remember logb A = P so b is base, a is answer and p is power :P but yer...pointless... but lol and most of us asians had already learnt the rules else where with our tutors and our teacher changed all the terms so it would fit the BAP rule, so we had stuff like logbB= 1 and so on...and lol it was so funny, i whisper to jessie "my tutor taught log a" jessie said yer so did mines, 2 girls in front turns around mine too from behind "i learnt log a too" ...slience then all giggle :P we are sooooooo cool :P maths....SIGH after maths i decided against going crossover, i was tired and i hadnt brought clothes to change into so there will be no point :/ got home and slept... :/ didnt wake up till 8, then i found out that class was cancelled, so.. :/ but OH NOEESSSS :( horrible news :( very very very very worried :(

all for one! and one for all!

it seems days past and everyday seems to have lost meaningless...as i aim to do stuff, that stuff is not done...the day becomes meaningless.... ...maybe i should really head to the library after school, since at the moment that is the only place i can do work :/ i am always so tired all the time :/ earlier sleeping time? doesnt really help.... i still continue to doze off in...places :) why do i have to be so stupid == tomorrow is wednesday, crossover? idk personally i do not like the song actually...i dont really know it and i REALLY cbb to bring a change of clothes + shoes...i know ^^ first world problems :P but such an effot! but... i dont think i would be heading in on sunday, as mum will not let me out cause of last sunday :P but i have to head in on friday :/ tomorroow................. :/ i need to learn all of power and all of you're the one...FUN :/ ill see if renee wants to go == yes... she wants to come back to dancing..which i strongly recommended not wednesday as we tend to go faster...and really she wouldnt like the song but... she wont know unless she comes :/ idk her choice tired tired tired.... WHY :( you make me sad :( on the bright side, friday is athletics carnival :) finally get a chance to wear it ^^...but it means maybe travelling to crossover in it... :/ lol

theres more to it :/

<3

the better of days

so this morning i woke up feeling so much better then i did last night ^^ the fever and died and i did feel cold and hot randomly :) horray for quick recovery :) although maybe it was cause of all the sleep i did ^^ so i woke up, got to school normally, i kept on thinking it was tuesday today...lol anyway i had first period maths we were going through our maths exams, wasnt really paying attention didnt really want to look at my mark :/ then after maths we had english, alot was done but most of it...i dont remember ^^ :P after english maths again, same as always, then after maths chemistry but the teacher wasnt here so most of us werent doing the work set..well at least the music people werent ^^ chemistry lesson was an outdoor lesson ^^ hahah yay for a nice sub :) after chemistry it was music, speeches were done and HEEHEE i got 10/10 :) which is the first thing i actually did right...although lol my speech was so not a formal speech, 60% of it was the class laughing about what i said and me and the teacher arguing about what i mean :P lol "sir....you asked WHITNEY...to SING it??!?!?!?!" in the end 10/10 all good :) thats a 12.5% in the bag ;) after was just religion, i didnt sleep ^^ but i didnt do work either :P i kinda just...sat there and stared into space ^^ lol some yr 7's phone was going off in their locker and it was ONE DIRECTION! sooo funny, and the ringtone went on FOREVER! i swear it played the whole song == but fun fun fun :) today was kinda a good day i wonder how tomorrow will go :)

not the best time

i feel like im about to die >< and just in time for tomorrow too == also I FAILED EVERYTHING! i swear its hopeless nothing can help me now, i just want to sit here and do absolutely NOTHING >< b abhhbhbh

when your heart gets pulled out, ripped into tiny pieces, then stepped upon, until you left with nothing but dust... its not an enjoyable experience, WHY MUST YOU DO IT!

我是什麼... ？ ...我根本沒有實際價值......

last day of "freedom"

so today was the last day of my exams, tomorrow, after around 2 weeks, will be the first day i have a full day of classes...joy:) well at least i dont have chemistry or physics tomorrow ^^ today was the orals, i went 6th cause they were going in alphabetical order, my group was k-p, i got it done and over with, the first half i was sleeping the second half i was playing temple run :) i broke my high score of 3000 and now its 5000 yay! :) orals ended at 1 so i decided to walk to anzac parade to catch the bus home, but ended up meeting carmen at her modsoc stand ^^ on the way there i ran into elena and kevin :) then i sat with the modsoc people for a while, hahahah so funny watching them hand out flyers ^^ then 2 oclock came and bec came and the 3 of us went to some place with a dance studio :) it was cool watching them ^^ then soon it was 4 and class was over :) people went to attend their lectures, while other lazy people did not, instead they got a chatime and was stubborn >.< anyway i got home really tired..well on the bus i was ^^ lol i feel asleep, but all the tiredness all went away when i got home...weird :P so tonight is kinda my last night of "freedom" until i get back into my daily routine again :/ or maybe shall i hold it off till after this week ^^ since i get an early mark wednesday, i have a wedding this friday and there karaoke on sunday :/ i wouldnt imagine being able to do stuff in between but SO MUCH MUSIC STUFF!! musicology, music aural, music performance >< all need to be done :P fun fun ^^

at least i have you

如果全世界我也可以放弃 至少还有你值得我去珍惜 而你在这里就是生命的奇迹 也许全世界我也可以忘记 就是不愿意失去你的消息 你掌心的痣我总记得在那里

today was fun :)

so i woke up this morning to pick up my grandparents from airport then we went out for yumcha :) yumcha was had and then it was piano time ^^ eh...i really need to start practicing >< but im so lazy all the time then i headed to the city, it was around 4 so i guessed jaye was at kco where my bus stop was, so i stopped by to see and he was still teaching! i saw the students i taught before (Y) they were still as nice as i remember, then jaye decided to go get a haircut, IN KOREATOWN!!! i didnt even know it was korea town, i just thought it was the part of the street with heaps of korean shops ^^, it didnt take as long as my hair cuts ^^ maybe cause i have longer hair :P then we headed back to co, kpop people were still there!! :) hahah funny stuff was done yay i finally learnt you are the one :) yes yes yes oppa? do it for summit you say!? :P then people left and staff began coming, we went to hotplate, lol mum calls telling me she is on the way to pick me up...but i havent even ordered yet :/ lol well dinner was had, leslie you were on a roll tonight! lol sah funny ^^ had a great time at dinner then we headed back to the studio, YAY! i finally got to hear it :) it was really really really good :) i cant wait till the day :) then after alot of random old chinese songs were "sang" then fun was had just lying in studio one :) fun fun but tomorrow back to work :( tired nowwww :/

Hey! i just met you!

NEW FAVOURITE SONG! ;) if we went kay on sunday would have so played this first :) so today i woke up, did chores then headed to chatswood with parents :) had mother daughter lunch as dad was in a acupuncture appointment :) we went to some shanghai place :) it was nice, then i took her to get frozen yoghurt, wanted to get their green tea again, but sadly :( noooo they changed it to banana =.= so we got passion fruit mums favourite, lol found out something really interesting ^^ if only she brought it :( then we walked around and then it was home time, fell asleep on the way,woke up when we were close to home, turns out there was a traffic jam... parents werent to happy but what can you do, i did other random stuff..and heehee hee ^^ :(

beyond tomorrow...

there seemed to be alot of talk about my future today, and really...i have no idea. im still not 100% sure that nursing is what i want to be :/ i think this other idea would be much more enjoyable for me..but is it a really good goal in life? :/

lol its tuesday ^^

lol so this morning i woke up humming the tune of babysteps but i was humming with english lyrics that seemed to be the right lyrics...but lol i thought...how do i know english lyrics... the songs in korean! i searched for an english song and lol turns out i knew the english one ages ago, and just didnt join the 2 ^^ well personally i will always like the original but snsd's cover is pretty good too :) so the whole day i practiced piano, did some chores, studied and really blobbed around :) goal still in mind, i will start after exams start. and this one i will definately start :) i swear ^^ tomorrow i have ext maths in the morning, only an hour exam :/ i hope thats enough timee i wouldnt imagine how it will go ive never done an exam paper before :/ dont feel to good about it either :/ i hope there are alot of trig questions :) there were only 2 in the 2u paper :/ after maths a 3hr break and i have chemistry, im just really excited to get chemistry done and over with :) then 4 day weekend! yay! :) :) english oral moved to monday which means more time to write it! :) :) i keep forgeting tomorrow is wednesday :/ lol welllllll more study?? :/

a day to remember

so this morning i woke up, felt normal as ever, made my way to school, got to school, wasnt really freaking out about the exam, got in the exam room, did the exam, and i must say nothing was extremely hard, everything was understandable it was just the matter of doing everything correctly, i hope i did alright :/ after the exam i started my hike to the city ^^ so i walked down to unsw from my school, and all the way up anzac parade, to oxford st then down oxford street into the city, i got to the city at 1 and then had lunch, :)after i went to the studio to bum around before heading home, i got home at exactly 6 when i found out that mum had made plans with grandma to have her mothers day dinner, at first i felt really bad cause i just ate and everything... so we decided to go to my uncle;s resturant in beverly hills...we didnt get to eat until 9:30 and we got there around 7:45 == well we cant blame him, he was the only cook out of everyone :/ so good job uncle! it was so funny waiting for food though :) after dinner we drove grandma home, heard the most hilarious story about my sister's horrible chinese, HILARIOUS i couldnt stop laughing ^^ soon i got home and now i am really tired ^^ should head to bed soon :) tomorrow is a free day! yay! well not really, i have to study maths ^^ and a bit of chem cause wednesday i have a 3hr break between them :) then exams over! and only the oral left ^^ which i still need to write :) thank you so much, its not like i dont feel bad enough already! :(

****iness

sooo today i decided to head out to crossover instead of studying ^^ i wasnt planning to take any classes, but i ended up helping jaye teach power and then since i already started dancing i ended up taking zandro's class with dan and david, i was planning to after my exams...but since they were already taking it and i wasnt doing anything i took class, the routine wouldnt be me favourite routines... i didnt like it very much but it was fun ^^ especially the YOOUUUU part ^^ lol...i searched the lyrics up...turns out the song is by rihanna... not going to mention the name... :) but >.< after zandros we went playground! but before that, people went to get random foods, i got bread top ^^ yay...well actually no...the one time i eat it leads to me dieing, its a sign....i shouldnt eat anymore. mafia was played YUKI! i told you you should believe me!! i was quite obvious that i was dumbledore and that we should all kill dan! people had to leave so i headed back to the studio to grab my jacket to head home...lol i got back jaye just finished class then we had a mini jam session, and did all the songs that came onto shuffle, i soon left for the bus, i thought i would have missed my 6:45 bus cause i only got the bus stop at 6:55 was planning to catch an alternative bus but yay! the bus was late! so i caught my bus home ^^ got home quite fast i arrived at exactly 7:15 maybe cause the bus was late everyone else assumed they were late for the bus and took another one ^^ on the bus to hk guys were talking about girls.... and really?! i took a glimpse and oh please, you guys arent really good looking i dont know what type of girls like you! both of you are so rude and just...no. i feel so sorry for the girls :/ wish they would wake up and see what these 2 truely are, the bus driver was really nice and said have a good night when i got of the bus ^^ got home and yes... resume life.

一個新的開始

i thought i was stronger then that, i always was but idk.. now its different, is it cause ive been thinking alot lately? maybe exam stress? idk, im kinda scared i have no idea what to do anymore, just sitting here i start wondering what i am actually doing and why i am here. i know your angry, i was never as smart as my sisters,and never will, yet i go out nearly most the time, and i cant really say its not my fault, but, i dont know what to do, why does everything have to be so hard, we all know the truth, and dont try to hide it, have you ever thought about why i stayed out so much? what being home meant to me? maybe i should stop going out so much... but i wouldnt imagine stop going to crossover, but thinking about it, all that will happen is...nothing really, just the thought of "oh she didnt come in" there isnt a real reason for me to be there, nothing will change dramatically if i didnt go, but staying at home, what good is that for me? well...i can already imagine it, its already starting... i dont want to return to my old self again :( but i havent completely headed into the direction i was going for, i say i was only closest 60% there, now im slowly returning...and i really want to do something about that... but i can back out now...to many things to do, kpop summit, charity concert, not being here for a month will affect this badly :/ i dont know why your so angry with me.... what am i supposed to do! just cause you have no power...dont take it out on me i cant believe you! you have absolutely no manners around the house, you help with absolutely nothing! yet its always you you you! i would never let myself do wat you do every day. the disadvantages of being the eldest. its settled. no more till then!.

mr.black belt

eh so today i had my physics exam...yay! its over:) alot of funny cramming in the morning the exam went pretty fast, and i was out of the exam room by 10:45 :) went to the music rooms to practice piano, then after a while, got lunch :) i really did eat! :D and then time pasted and decided to make my way to crossover... idk crossover time went really fast day :/ maybe cause i really wasnt there for long :) got home pretty early and stuff was dicuss problems were sorted out and i fell asleep ^^ haaha i slept from 9-1 and now..i am awake with nothing to do :) twas a nice time today....a time of....non studying and stress? it was nice to just sit. :) thank you :)

a day wasted...now i am going to fail

so i woke up normal school time this morning to go to school to pick up my physics book to study today, i got to school, quickly made it to my locker LOL, my locker is right outside a room right? and my year co-ordinater was teaching in there, the thing is...i didnt know if i was allow at school... so i wore my uniform just incase ^^ worst thing was my locker is a metal locker IT MADE SO MUCH NOISE! good thing she didnt notice. lol i totally forgot and banged my locker shut :/ lol i left quickly incase someone starts questioning my presence. after i got home and slept again ^^ i listened to power all the way through and woke up right on the dot. 12. :) well kinda not good cause i was going to meet jaye at 1 to check out a place for kpop summit, so i was a little late :/ soo stuff was done, more studio stuff then mistakes were made :( NEVER TELL ME TO DO ANYTHING AGAIN! ill just mess it up :( so i decided to leave at 5:30 to the library to study for physics...i got to the library at 6:30...studied for an hour then got my mum to pick me up ITS NO USE! PHYSICS JUST WONT WORK FOR ME!:( i didnt want this to happen :( the plan for now is to read the text book and sleep straight in the hope that everything will just sink into my brain :) i hope that works ^^ its the only thing i have left :(

tiring ^^

sooo today was kinda an interesting day ^^ first thing in the morning ENGLISH EXAM! yes i was done people already know how it went so not going to waste time to write it up again, basically i would say i wont be getting that 18/20 :) after the exam i headed to the city where i planned to have lunch with jaye, yes.....awkward is awkward == WHY!!!! studio stuff was done and soon people started coming ^^ printers were visited many times ^^ then soon class started, before class i was un-motivated and didnt feel like learning the dance but BOY WAS I WRONG! by the end of the night it was AGAIN! AGAIN! AGAIN! :) after class short discussion was discussed and still..i dont know if we came to a decision lol ^^ oh wells we have 2 months, after was dinners ^^ yay for eating (Y) lol funny quarrel ^^ all good fun, all good fun, HA DAN! i knew gandalf and dumbledore we not the same person! :D after dinners i headed back to studio, told ellyn about sunday ^^ super excited! :) hahah then random bumming and lol ended the night singing deifying gravity i need to know the dialogue better :/ tomorrow is going to be an interesting day ^^ heehee physics on friday.... INTERESTING :)

exams tomorrow...totally NOT READY!

1. i know, its hard, it gets lonely sometimes and you cant do anything about it, but i really dont know what to do, i guess at this momment, nothing. just living life as it comes. i doubt that day will EVER come. seeing people around me, one by one, thats 3 new-ish ones, idk maybe that movie wasnt too good for me, but LOL seriously?! i would never understand, at least not now, but again maybe not ever, 2. i know you hate it when people say those things, but it cant be help. sometimes it can get annoying i find it annoying sometimes too, but i feel, every once and a while, everyone feels like expressing their thoughts and i kinda understand that 3. i hate you sometimes but sometimes i dont, i dont know whether i SHOULD hate you or shouldnt i, BOTH OF YOU ARE THE SAME! why do you guys have to be so ARGHHH, its so hard to pick a side, both of you can be so annoying at times, sometimes scary, but i dont know whether i hate you, :/ 4. i really really like you as a friend but sometimes YOU ANNOY THE HELL OUT OF ME, and its always me that forgives and forgets, what you did today pissed me off SO MUCH more than the other day. WHY! 5. sometimes i dont know what to think, what am i supposed to do... are we starting to stop? i think the pressure of exams is getting to me...i dont show it really..but as soon as the door closes....break down.... I DONT KNOW ANYTHING ANYMORE everyone is confusing to meeeeeeeee i dont know who to talk to anymore, everyones kinda gone :/